Inside my head

This made me laugh today.  I totally do the same thing every day.  I usually wake up before the alarm clock (last night I was fortunate enough to awaken at 17 past each hour of the night).  Love 2:17, 3:17 was great--3 more hours! 4:17 seemed a little close to wake up time and at 5:17 you have to ask yourself, should I get some stuff done and wake up now?  Mollie woke me at some point because the battery in her smoke alarm was chirping.  When I wake up, I usually try to pray.  It serves several purposes, 1) I try to give a prayer of Thanksgiving every day, because, at the end of the day, I'm pretty damn fortunate 2) because I try to pray at least once a day and finally 3) it's really like meditating--it centers me and half the time I fall asleep before I can "bless mommy and daddy..."  So I either fall back asleep or end up having some sort of stream of consciousness thoughts like above

what's on my list to do today?  I need to make a hair appointment, my roots look terrible, oh and Mollie wants her hair done for homecoming.  Ugh!  homecoming, I so hope Mollie gets asked.  I worry about her not getting asked.  I'm sure she will, she has to, right?  And the dress, I'm pretty sure the dress isn't going to work out.  Is that my fault?  We looked at it in July and I didn't think it was dressy enough.  Now 4 girls are wearing the same dress in different colors.  Am I a bad mother because I didn't think we needed to buy a homecoming dress in July?  Oh I'm off track, ok what else? I need to call the eye doctor for Parker, I can't believe I spaced his appointment on Saturday!  Do I like this new bed?  I can't decide.  I mean it's really comfortable, but it's not cozy really.  OK eye doctor, I should tick these things off on my fingers.  Shit I've got so much to do today.  Well I can't go to Nikki's because of my back and I'm going to walk with JM at 7:45, then I've got to empty the dishwasher, shoot I've got so much laundry.  The house is a pit, I should just stay home all day today and clean.  That's what I'll do.  That's good exercise.  Oh crap we have no food, I've got to go grocery shopping.  I want to get to La Soupe and get Mary that healing broth.  Oh wait, I don't have time I have to tally spirit wear.  But there aren't that many orders.......

I could go on, but I'm starting to scare myself.

And of course, am I doing any of those things?  No, I'm the computer.

Crap, it's 9:23.  One hour till tally time.  Better get moving. Maybe I'll finish listening to Little Princes while I do the dishes and laundry.  Does my back hurt or not?  Am I being lazy, careful or smart not working out today?  Crap I've got 65 emails too, I'm never going to get off the computer.